Give me a smile... ;)

Need to calm myself now

Need to cheer up myself now

;D

Jom dengar my honey sing for me k!

Hehehhee

:P

Eng trans :

Give me a smile, 

Don't be sad It's going to be alright. 

Don't shed a tear 

The song that I am singing now 

I hope that it can bring you a bit of comfort 

Give me a smile, 

Don't get hurt It's going to be alright,

although you are going through a hard time now 

Time will pass 

Everything will look up again 

Give me a smile 

I am right here by your side I love you, 

can you hear my heart? 

Close your eyes 

No matter what, 

I believe you I am always here for you 

Give me a smile, look into my eyes I love you, 

I have always been looking at your heart 

It has never changed 

You can lean on my shoulders 

Take a rest, 

Give me a smile. 

I am here for you, me who believes in you 

always and forever.

A lovely friend said to me yesterday, 

" Pipah x rse lg mcm mane skitnye bercinta, rsenye sakit sgt smpai x leh describe..."

Btul!

Ak x rse lg mcm mane sakitnye.

Tapi untung la spe yg da rse sbb 

Allah nk tnjuk pd korg awl2 susahnye bnda tuh.

Allah nk tnjuk 'know-how' bnda tu.

Allah nk ajr org tuh jd kuat n bleh lalui ap2 jek lpas ni.

Sayang kan Allah pd korg??? :D

Ak plak, x rse pown lg bnda tuh n ak x taw klu ak kuat nk lalui bnda2 tuh.

Bnda2 stress biasa pown x kuat, inikan plak sakit yg x leh describe tu.

I'm too scared to go through a relationship 

that i'm afraid to love people.

I'm even afraid to open my heart to people coz I'm afraid to b hurt.

That's how weak I am! ;(

So, my lovely friend dat I love so much!

B strong!!

Allah LOVE U SO MUCH!

*Jeles* 

Sbb tuh sume ni jd skrg...

I love u! 

;D

p/s : Ak nk kna cheer up bkn sbb putus cinta yek! :P

Ad masalah negeri + negara skit. 

:D

Letter to Tuan Hati :)

Simpan bnda ni dlm draft xtaw da bape lame, sbln lbeyh kot!

Bru ade 'tenaga' nk tekan 'publish post'

:P

Pernah x korg terigtkn seseorg secara tiba2??

Erm... 2 3mnggu lpas or myb da sbulan lbeyh kot ak terasa bnda nih!

X tahu knape, wajah die dtg saat ak berdoa lepas solat.

Kadang2 tiba2 tringtkn die time ak tgh wat bodoh. hehehe 

Sape tuh??

Tuan Hati

Sape tuh?

Cri sndri!

Hehehehe

Kisah lama n pnjg critanye.

Heeeeeee

Rsenye da lama kot x trpkirkn bnda ni

Walaupown kdg2 dtg perasaan bersalah yg ak simpan, tp xdek sekerap skrg.

Tertanya2 plak knapa...

Tnya dri sndri

Rndu ke kt die

*geleng2*

Abis tuh knape cmni??

*Angkt bahu*

Huhuhuh tak tahu...

Tnye seseorg yg myb lbeyh tahu bnda2 cmni

Katanya...

Myb...

"Dia teringtkn kita kot or dia dlm susah n pnggil2 kita dlm diam. Doa2knlah die."

Aish... Btul ke?

I prefer da first one coz I dun want him to b in trouble

But then, i seriously laugh at that coz i would never think dat he would think about me anymore...

Herm... ntah la.

Xpelah!

Huhuhuhu

Mungkin rasa bersalah yg ak bawak sorg2 slama ni dtg blik kot.

Myb sbb tuh terigt2kn die

Yeap, RASA BERSALAH

Secara jujurnye, x dek la ak jelas sgt knape ak rse bersalah

Tp bila da rse bersalah tuh, mesti ad salah ak buat kt die
kn?!

Btul! 'Jwb sndri lak... :P'

Byk salah ak pada die.

Salah ak sebab x hargai apa yg die beri

Salah ak lukakn hati die

Ya Allah, kalaulah Allah bg kekuatan pd dri ak ni.

Da lama ak minta maaf terus ngan die.

Tapi, ak x mmpu.

Ak fikir knape nk susahkn hdup die skrg

Knape ak nk kacau hdup die skrg?

Sedangkn hdup die bahgie aje... :)
Myb ak yg terlbeyh pkir kot. 

Myb u won't come across this blog or even this entry

Myb u won't remember da old times or even me

But I have something to say to u...

May Allah send this apology to u n soften ur heart to forgive me

=)

Tuan Hati!

I'm sorry for everythng dat I had done to u

I'm sorry for not appreciate everythng dat u had done to me

May ur life become better n happier!

*I bet u r! =P*

Kalau masa bleh dputar... I would treat u better 

Tapi masa x bleh dputar.

So, I hope Allah will treat both of us better.

=D 

If it's fated, nothing can change dat.

p/s: Haaaiiiiinnng! Brg2 dlm kotak kesygn sume x taw duk mane dah! Kes hdup pndh randah la nih! =(

Sayunk!!! I'm hurt when u r hurting...

Felt like crying when u crying in front of me.

But I can't cuz u r crying... sorry syunk...

If i could fly to u rite now

I WILL!

Why u want to b hurt again?!!!

I love u so much dat i became such a bad friend at that time

Cuz I'm asking u to let go someone dat u love...

I'm sorry....

I juz love u so much dat i felt like 'cekik2' him rite now!!!!

Herm... it's ok.

Anything happen after diz, i'm still here with u

Do something dat u think would b da best for u.

U have to b strong k! 

U have me if u lost thousand people.

Remember dat!!!

Dun b sad!!

Xnk nangis2 da!!!! 

B urself again! Da old u dat i miss so much!!!

*Dark circle ko mkin bsar pehal??? :P *

hhehehhehe

I miss u so much dat i felt like crying when i see u sleep through skype.

T_T

Hahahhaa

Lawak la kte, duk same2 dlu pown cmnih

Duk jawh pown skype smpai ttdo...

:P

p/s: Abaikn muka kerek ku yek! :P

RoofTop Rant! :)

Aish...

Nk ngadu...

Rse2nye kn, mak n ayah still anggap ank pompuan die ni dak kecik ag kot...

T_T

Bkn sdeyh sgt... heeeeeee tipo!

Sdeyh jgk kdang2, tp pkir2 blik...

Betul jgak ap diorg pkir.

Diorg syangkn ank2....

:D

Tapiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Geram nk ckp ank die ni a bsar da!

Da bleh buat bnda sndri

Nk berdikari brgerak sndri2

Pkir2 blik, mak ayh dri kecik ajr kitaorg brdikari...

Sanggup suh ktaorg naek bas or even plane tnpa parent.

Tapi bila da bsar ni, ase cam diorg x prcye lak.

Trigt plak time nk g Besut bln 7 dolu.

Klu ikotkn da lme da ayh x bg sbb xnk bg naek kereta sewa sorg dr Machang ke Besut.

Sampaikn die snggup p hntr smpai Besut.

Geram jek time tuh.

Bkn x bertrima kasih tp rase mnyusahkn.

Kalau ikotkn, bleh je pegi sorg.

X suke btol bile da kna mnyusahkn nih!

Bknnye ank die ni x penah jln sengsorg.

*Hobi kot jln sorg2! hehhee *

Dolu2 x trasa bnda ni sbb x reti nk jln2.

Bila da bsar, 

mnat plak nk p jln2 nih, 

bru terasa.... 

Aish... klau la diorg pham mnt ank die yg sorg nih!

Tapi nk mrh kt dri sndri gak!

Afifah!

Awak tuh prempuan!

mgada kn nk jln2 sorg2?!

Jalan plak sesuka hati sesedap rse die jek!

Dr ats gunung smpailah dlm air tuh ko nk jelajah!

Xpatot2.... 

 dok umah aje la Afifah.....

T_T

P/s: Sape ad tips nk lmbutkn hati mak + ayah??? 

Without A heart! :)

Somebody asked me is it so hard to tell that u r sad or anythng?? 

Erm... Lme jgk mncri2 knape ak cmni ek?? 

Then I found this song! :)

If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain

If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears

Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...

But people ask me why I'm crying...

I'm without a heart, I don't have a heart

So I wouldn't be feeling pain

Everyday I talk to myself, and put myself under a spell

But even so, I keep shedding my tears

( People build wall to protect themselves n diz is how i protect myself, teach myself to not hav heart. B cool! :P )

If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain

If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears

Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...

But people ask me why I'm crying,

when I'm laughing like this...

I'm without a heart, I don't have a heart

Again today, I can see through your lies

My heart is in so much pain, I'm begging for your help

How can I smile in times like this?

If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain

If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears

Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...

But people ask me why I'm crying,

when I'm laughing like this...

I'm without a heart, I can't be in pain

I'm without a heart, I can't be in pain

Let's just laugh, just laugh, just laugh

Please, please let's stop crying now...

Sbnrnye lyric die pnjg agi.

Ak cut2 yg mne yg x brkenaan sbb lgu ni tuk org putus cinta.

Eden x putus cinta! heheehe >.<

It is exactly who I am! :)

Kdg2 bile sdeyh2, susah sgt nk jmpe org.

Ase x nk jmpe org, nk duk sorg2. 

Tp ak xleh duk sorg2 sbb ak taw ak akn sdeyh ag.

So, i prefer to have people around me n not talking about it

n laugh. :)

Sometimes i prefer to b alone n sleep! :P

As much as i hate people ask me why i'm sad,

i love someone juz ask me why i'm not smiling.

I would instantly smile! :D

But u know, i won't say why... :P

Tgk mood la nk cter ke x. :) 

Hehehe pelik kn???

*pompuan mmg pelik! hehe*

Juz like the 1st verse, 

ak tkut klu ak ckp sdeyh, ak tkut air mata mngalir.

Sbb ak jnis pkir, ap2 yg jd pd kta smuanya mindset.

Klu mindset kita positif, everythng would turn out well.

Cube la try, pg2, bgn2 je tdo, trus pkir

"mlsnye hri ni"

Tgklah, ari tuh konpem korg mls smpai mlm.

Klu pg2 pkir positif, senyum2 n pkir 

"today's gonna b fine! :)"

Korg akn rse smuanya smooth jek even ad mslh sana sni.

Tp manusiakn mrncg aje.

Allah SWT yg control hdup kta.

Akn ad bnda brlaku d luar kwln kta.

So, time tuh dri sndri kna tntukn

Nk bnda tuh turn out well 

Or u want it to turn out hell.

:)

Prnh x pkir, knape ad org tnang ajek, tgk muka pown tenang ajek even ad puting beliung ribut petir?? 

Sbb mereka brpgang pd Tuhan!

*this include other religions*

Why people chose to have religion??

Cause they want to rely on something that will make them stronger n help them to b stronger.

They would feel they r not alone when they sad or happy

cause they r not alone.

In Quran, Allah said

"Indeed, those who submit themselves absolutely to GOD alone, while leading a righteous life, will receive their recompense from their Lord; they have nothing to fear, nor will they grieve.[2:112]"

Ni lagu asl, siap ngan translation. Sape2 x mnat kpop myb x suke kot. 

Nice song! :) 

*suke mksd die*

p/s : This post is a reminder to me to teach myself to open up to others a lil bit more... :) n remember that i'm not alone.

I have Allah by my side n my loved ones! :D

CinTa ItU :)

I really want to share this here... :D

During Ramadan, I spent most of days at my grandma's house dat i lovingly called 'MA'

I would say dat those days r days i miss da most

I found peace juz by looking at her face

n hearing her voice

Dat face dat i would dare to say such a beautiful face

I think I can feel something 

whenever i look into her eyes

She's missing someone

Every nite, she would sleep only juz a few hours 

Woke up early and prepared us sahur

Then you would hear her voice reciting the Quran echoed in the house

I love dat moment so much...

2.00 a.m 

30 august

Dawn of Eid for 2011

She woke up early again

I asked her why

She said she couldn't sleep

End up prepared nasi dagang for the Eid next morning

I felt a lump of emotion in my throat at dat time

Suddenly i felt sad

'She's missing ABAH'

Dat's wat i'm thinking 

I end up sit beside her and watching her 

She's preparing nasi dagang for us

A tradition for her n us

A 'religion' to her since she married my late Abah ( My late grandpa )

There's silence between us

Without words i just sit there n helping her whatever that i can

But I end up went back to sleep

While she's cooking till morning with my mother later

If Abah is there

She would not be alone doing all that

She would have someone to nag her

To help her

*my late grandpa was a great cook!! :D*

She would sleep tightly in his arm at night before Eid

She would not get up dat early

Someone would make her smile on Eid day

I miss that....

Looking back

I never heard his name out of Ma's mouth after he's gone

I never saw her tears

But she's become someone dat love to kept old things even they're broken

Old cupboard dat Abah build for her is still there

His kain pelekat n kopiah is still there 

Even I think, his smell is still in their room

I want to have dat kind of love

Pure love between Abah n Ma

They are like match make in heaven

Ma was 16 when they married 

She was a petite chinese malay girl and Abah was a police officer

Abah is a strict n loud person

Ma is such a sweet n softspoken person

She would prepare anything that he like

He would help her in kitchen

He would prepare anything that she need in the house

A cupboard, chair, a room, a store hut

Everything is for her comfort

Truthfully

I miss him too

When he died

I'm not there

I cried so much when my mom told me through the phone

Two death in one day

My Abah n my Ayah Su

As my family flew back to Kelantan

I'm in Kuching.

Left with my brother across the sea

I don't even know where's their graves at that time

I cried so much that i can't even talk to anybody

Then the next day

My tears stopped

N I never cried about him again

But seeing Ma's face

Make all memories with him come back

His teases to me

His yell n nags to me

His face when he cooking n gardening

I miss that

I'm regret to not have chance to see his face n kiss his forehead

chance to apologize to him

T_T

Ya Allah, tempatkanlah dia di tempat orang2 yg beriman dan tmpt org2 yg Kau kasihi... 

I want to grow old with someone

Not two or three

Just one man dat willing to grow old with me

Is it so hard to have dat??

To loyal to a person throughout your life?

Seeing them, I get that

Marriage is not about you marrying a person for your own good

It's about marrying a person's life for you n her/him

Everything is Allah's fate

He prepared everything beautifully for us

I hope I would get the best that He prepared for me...

Amin... :)