dear heart....

a person may b blind

but he hav ears to hear everything wit their heart

a person may b deaf

but he hav eyes to see everything wit their heart

a person may b mute

but he hav hands to touch everything wit their heart

when u looking everything back

they r more fortunate than a normal person

a normal person dat don't use his eyes, mouth and ears with their hearts is more unfortunate....

person dat hav everythng dat human dream of

money

power

fame

think dat they r so superior on diz earth

n when they can't hav somethng dat they want

they called this world is unfair

dat is a person dat dun hav a heart

they r deaf, mute n blind.....

cause they can't appreciate evrythng dat they hav with their heart

To zara,,,,

Dear Zara...

Ak da buat ap yg ak patot buat...

ak da ikot cakap ko tuk go through everythng...

It end well at least...

but i'm crying now.. :(

I dun know why...

I'm sorry...

Gonna miss u a lot.

I can't find anybody that can stand my crazy perangai like u!

Gonna miss the last few days with u

Our date together.... I felt like dats da best date i ever hav! :)

Gonna miss my dancing buddy!!! 

Da Moonlight Starlight dance is da best!!! 

Like u said, everytime i hear saltwater room  

i'll remember u.....

Zara n Lydia... Da one dat being there for me when i'm alone

Da one dat can understand my heart...

Da one dat made me laugh when i'm crying....

Gonna mis u guys so much! 

Bye cyberjaya....

A journey dat i won't forget for da rest of my life

A journey dat made me grown up....

i can say this now....

Now i can say this.... 

For a long time i kept it inside...

But now, finally i can say this cuz now i can understand everytng...

After everyhtng happened for the last few months, i'm actually not only lost my study,

but i lost my precious frens....

My immature thought made me doing all dat....

I ran away from people as if they r da one dat cause everyhtng...

I'm sorry...

Part of me regret for everythng dat i've done cuz i hurt them

i hurt their hearts... 

i left them without any words n confusion...

Part of me not regret it cause i think dat's what i should do at dat time

So that i don't hurt them anymore

So that i don't burden their life anymore

So that my heart not hurt anymore than what i already felt at that time...

I remember dat time, i cry my heart out like i never been before...

At dat time, i don't know what's hurt the most.

Either the fact dat my future had been thrown away by people 

or the fact that

neither my frenz were there when i need them da most

At dat time i think

'Ah... I really live my life awfully before this...

I treat them not good enough

I'm not a good fren to them....

I'm really not a good person...'

I blame myself....

Yes 

It is my fault

It's my fault for asking n demand more than they are...

They r like that n dat's sumting i can't change

As a gud fren, i should b da one dat understand them...

They r a good frens

Very good frens

They want to help but they don't know how n end up left me there...

I'm da one dat not trying to open my heart to them....

Tonight, last nite i'm here...

After a long time of no words between us, i'm trying to fix everythng...

My prayers had been answered.

I kept asking Allah all this time...

'Ya Allah, juz let me do this n fix everythng before i left here....'

Alhamdulillah...

 Eventhough i doubt it, Zara said to me

' Grab this chance to fix everythng n left with calm hearts n start a new life after this.

So that u don't left any scars on ur heart... B brave!'

The starting was so awkward dat i don't utter a single word.

I'm alone there with them...

My heart felt stuffy!

Finally, i said to myself

' Juz act normal n nothing happened b4...'

N IT IS...

Myb da scars is there, but atleast i don't made them felt uncomfortable...

Eventhough i can't even look in their eyes...

Every secs n mins i'm with them, 

i felt like crying... Even when i'm laughing... My thoughts on everythg dat happened b4 kept popping in my brain...

*missing da old times...*

 aiman, ja,  faz...

I'm sorry for being such a bad fren to you

Sorry for being such a burden to you...

I'm sorry...

It's my fault... i'm sorry....

I luv you guys n i hope everytng gonna b fine...

good lucks n please b good n live a good life...

Tomorrow i'm gonna left u guys without saying gudbye...

I think dat's da best for now.... 

Hope this frenship may last forever...

InsyaAllah....

A vid dat Aiman share after our outing today... 

Besh! Sbb ad upin ipin! hehehe nice song... :D

Seagull family... :)

Seagull = brung camar yg byk kt pntai2 kt oversea... 

Brung ni slalu pndah rndh ikot musim tp die akn balik tnh asal jgak nati...

So, my family is seagull family...

Kitaorg pndh lagi.... Tp naseb bek dkt jek!

Bumi same jek!

Dr Pengkalan Chepa pndh Machang...

Ayah da kna tkar p sane da...

Shian mak!

Hehehe

Asal ak call jek sore die cam org bru lpas lari 100m.

Heehehehe

Nk wat cmne, org keje krajaan...

Da msuk ni, x taw da bape kli kitaorg pndh.

Yg lawak nye, ak ase tiap kli ak blik cuti jek umah bru.

Umah bru jek ak blik cuti!

:P

Adek2 la duk majuk ngan ayah sbb kna pndh lg.

Bdak2 biasa la kn.... Pindah2 ni susah. Nk kna cri kwn bru plak....

Paham la perasaan diorg... Huhuhu 

 Sabor la yek....

So, x sbr nk balek yay!

:D

P/s : 

In life, sumtimes not everythng go as we want them to be...

So, learn to live ur life whereever u r. B a great person who is humble n kind dat anyone can respect....

Learn to let go is da crucial thing....

< an advice for myself >

< da words not indicate anything k... :P>

tanam anggur.... :)

Dsebabkn da jd org trbuang, Alhamdulillah...

:P

Ad rezki buat bnda yg x penah wat sblum ni...

p/s : tnm anggur = mnganggur...

Me n da gang yg sme2 tnm anggur pegi....

GENTING HIGHLAND!!!!!!!

Yay!!!!!!!!!!! 

:D

 Slama slalu plan jek nk pegi tp x jd jek... 

Da ad org ajk nih, ap lg kn?? Hehehhee

Jom2.... 1st time naek cable car. :)

Besh2 wlaopown seram... View die cntek. Time ni pkul 10 lbeyh..

Da smpai!!!!! Amik gmbr luh... tbe2 ad antu omputih kt blakang. Jgn tokojut k.... hehhee

1st game kitaorg maen, merry go around... da naek bru taw muat tuk bdak2 jek.

Tp besh! hehhe Tgk muke Zatil kt blakang pown da taw... kuang2.... 

Men2 buaian! hehe besh2, trun2 je, Yan da pening2. 

Perasaan naek ni lbih krang cam naek buaian laju2 time kecik2 tp x5! :D

 naek ni cam roller coaster tp scale die small jek. Naek ni pown da ase nk trkluar jantung... atoi...

Pirate ship!!! Naek ni x smpt nk takut sbb duk gelakkn org sblah pnye muke... hehhee

Game pling besh! hehehe :P mainan bdak2 nih tp kitaorg gatal nk naek... nmpk bdak kt dpn concentrate giler! :P

Jom naek bot!!!! Elok jek kitaorg abih maen, ujan plak.. So x leh maen kjap.

Naseb bek ujan kjap ajew....

Cockscrew! Game pling mnakutkn! Dlu bajet terer ase leh naek, tp da naek x bukak mata pown! 

Trun jek trus pucat muka! Da la sjuk gile.... HEHE... Agk2 da terer leh la naek! :)

Game pling seram!  Tgk dr bwh pown da kecut prut... Nk naek sume muka rsau! 

Bile bnda ni naek smpai ats leh nmpk stu genting, cntik sgt! 

Smpt sbut SubhanAllah...

Tp elok jek da sbut, bnda tuh trun mngejut trus terkluar jntung! Aish tobat2...

Tp klu suh naek ag leh jek sbb feel die lbeyh krang bungee jumping. Sila try2... :)

Dinasourland...

Ats bot kt situ ni k....

We r da queens of the world!!!!!!! :D

Pastu da penat kitaorg rhat jap n mkn2...

Sambung2 jln2 lak! 

Cntik kn??? bkn org tuh, viewnye... :D

Kt stu brkabus sgt! Myb sbb ujan kot. Xsngka lak kt situ leh sjuk cmtuh!

Tp sjuk die bkn cam sjuk aircond, sjuk die sjuk nyaman sgt... Besh2! 

Ni go-kart tp dgn bngga ak gtaw korg ak x leh naek sbb x ckop tnggi.... huwaaaaaaa :(

Ssh jd pndek nih! huhuhu

Kitaorg x naek game ni sbb over xtrem la plak... high class pnye roller coaster.... Huhuhu

Lastly naek ULAT2.... :D Pusing2 round satu genting.

Naek ni korang leh tgk view genting..... Relax2.... Kaki time da vibrate da sbb penat sgt. Hehehhee

Pastu jom balek!!!!!!!!!!! 

BEsh sgt!!!!!!! Thanks korg, klu x ajk ni x taw bile lg leh pegi... Mekacih2.... :)

Thnk u!!!!!!!!

Sori la trlbeyh gmbr.... :)

Those happy smiles.... Gonna mis u all! Thanks 4 everythng n gudlaks!

Moga jodoh kita pnjg n leh jmpe ag.... :D

p/s : Ak blajar... Slama ni ak slalu sgt brgntung pda org laen. Buat pape pkir org laen dlu smpai smua pluang lpas dr tngn sndri...

Now i need to learn how to live for  myself... rite??? :D

K06!!!!!!!! Klu korg nk pegi jom la, sbb korg ak snggup p lg nih! hehehe