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Jan 5, 2011

Am I da wrong one??

I'm really am sorry to all my friend dat I left them without words...
I'm sorry for not answering your questions.
I'ts just dat it was so hard to tell u...

My college akn kluarkn 86 student out of 236 becoz MMC ( Malaysia Medical Council ) will not recognize da college if we do not do dat. 
Dan diorg bg plihan kt kitaorg, 
Tukar course kpd farmasi kt CUCMS
Tukar sem 1 blik for august 2011 intake
Tukar uni ( Taylors, MSU, UniKL, ACMS )
>> p/s : Bdak tajaan nmpknye lgi berisiko sbb JPA n MARA sdia pndhkn student....

After meeting wit parents yesterday, we made decision to stay put.
However, apparently dat's all false hope. 

Korg, ak bkn xnk ckp ngan korg, bkn xnk crite tp ak tkut sgt... Sgt tkut. 
Xtahu nk wat ap...
Klu diorg ikut academic performance, mmg ak rse ak kna sbb rezut ak truk...
AK SGT TAKUT.
Spnjg ak hidup, ni la brita plg gerun penah ak dgr.
Mcm dgr ko kna pecat kerja.
Mcm dgr husband ckp nk cerai.
Lbey krang la... huhuhu

Ak bkn x nk crite kt korg tp ak tkut ak mnangis bile crita kt korg.
Ak tkut air mata mengalir lg....
Ak juz nk korg ade kt sni, pluk ak. Ak x nk ckp pape... 
Bg ak kekuatan... 
Ak bce kta2 korg kt fb pown ak da ngalir air mata.
Inikn plak ko nk suh ak crita bnda ni dr A smpai Z...
X smpt smpai B kot nati...
Ak x kuat...
Ak xtaw nk wat ap skang, xtaw nk pkir ap dah...
Da mcm mayat idup pown ad. 
Da 3 ari demam n x sembuh2 agi.... T_T
X penah lg demam truk cmni.....

Korg, tlonglah, doakn ak... Doakn kwn kau ni. Scebis doa mohon yg terbaek buat ak dan kwn2 kt sni...
Sungguh kami x kuat dah...
Dan Allah je mmpu blas jasa doa2 korg....
InsyaAllah...

If u ask wat i fell rite now...
I'm angry
Frustrated
Helpless
Lonely
Rse geram sgt bile org ckp, berkorbanla, demi org len...
Geram sgt ble org ckp, ko kuar la, ko sng skit...
Geram sgt bile org ckp, tmpt len lg besh, pegi la...
Adeyh, sngnye manusia brckp...
Cube pkir klau korg berada kt tpmt ak.
Cube pkir klu ank korg dperlakukn mcm ni.
Disepak2 suka hati jek....

Tp... Mcm ni la, ak tenangkn hati ngn ckp, Allah jdkn sgalanye ad sebab, ade kebaikannye...
Ya Allah, andai Kau tntukn sesuatu pdku, Ak mohon itu yg trbaek, dunia n akhirat.
Mohon kau kuatkn hatiku ats segalanya....
Kaulah Maha Besar, Maha mengetahui segalanya....

Wat my parents say??
They told me not to worry too much n juz accept wat would happen aftr diz.
They will accept wateva da decision...

To my beloved frens... 
Pah + Nemo + Mice + Wani + Timah + Syaza ....
Thanks a lot for worrying bout me, ask me bout wat happen... It's not dat i dun want to tell u but, u know me rite?? huhuhu.... I luv u all.... All ur words, letters give me strength to go on n cry too! :P ... Thnks a lot.... Wish u were here....
Everyone dat asking me to calm down n b strong, thnks.... 
Tuhan je blas jasa baek korg....

P/s : Klau... ade pndgn yg bernas ap yg patot ak buat, blehla gtaw! huhuhuhu 
x sanggup da nk kna sepak2 suke ati ni...




4 comments:

pu3_nemo said...

fifah..be strong..ALLAH gv trials to those who ALLAH loves a lot..everything gonna be ok dear..just remember oen word..

"this moment will fade away soon" ..

doa2 byk..we here will pray for u..
we all loves u ..
everything gonna be fine..
ALLAH noes wat d best for us..
ALLAH will nvr gv us trials that we r not able to face..
we will be there together with u ...as souls to protect u..to be ur shoulder that u can lean on..

. said...

ana asif jiddan, ana asif jiddan dengar cerita sebenar!

aku harap, kau jgn tukar course! tak tahu.. but aku rasa kau patut jadi doktor!

huhhhh.. sediyh sangat. T___T

aku dapat tahu cerita sebenar dpd status syaza fatinah.
lepas tu, aku baca surat khabar.

its ok... aku faham perasaan kau.... berat mata yg memandang, lagi berganda2 berat bahu yang menanggung! you are stronger than what you think!
percaya pada Allah...

jgn hilang kepercayaan kat Allah...

aku doakan, Allah tempatkan kau, jie, ainin, fadilah, semua kawan2 kat cucms kat tempat terbaik!

Allah sedang berbicara denganmu tentang sabar dan ikhlas!

najiehah najwa said...

pah..jgn takut...
hadapinya dengan tenang..
sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk kita..walaupun kita tak suka menda 2...but one day we will realize it..ok

memang nampak cam senang je bila cakap tapi hanya Allah Yang Maha Mengetahui..jgn putus harap..if you want to stay at CUCMS, so fight..no matter even ur bestfriend volunteer herself..dont follow others

nadzifah said...

insyaAllah lepas sume ni ad solutionnya, msti ko ase lega. insyaAllah, mna taw, lpas ni ko akn jd lebih kuat n lbih brjaya.

Ni salah 1 cara Allah nk uji hamba-Nya yg KUAT cam ko.. jaga kesihatan tu. :)

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