how's life??

Afifah, how's life?

Haha.... tnye dri sndri plak... :P 

Everything is okay although i stumble here n there, anyhow, everything is ok..

Dat's life is it? we stumble sumtimes...

:)

Last week, spend some precious time wit my family.

Kuar shopping, jln2, mkn2.. :D

Nowadays, ayah n mak bz kalah menteri! hehehe

Slalu outstation jek. So, last week ayah ad mesyuarat kt KL, 

so, parent bwk adek2 ribena tuh jln2.... JELES EDEN!!!!

Tp xpela, smpat abihkn msa shari yg ad ngan diorg. 

Da la ak homesick!!! Ilang rndu skit....

Alhamdulillah...

I really am thankful now...

Allah knows da best rite???

He arrange everything beautifully...

^^

Study??

My biochem paper, i failed it ngan bangganya! Hahaha

Mmg xdek jodoh ngan Chemi....

Starting 2 giv up, but then, seeing my parent face last weekend, make me think...

'this really not da end yet, u cant giv up!'

To Atie... we walk on da same path, there's no different...

U hav 2 be strong n i really know how u feel

I'm sorry that i can't b at ur side n hug u tightly...

but please b fine...

remember, i always hugs u silently at da back, giving u small strength....

Luv u n missing u like crazy....

Now, I'm in da behavior science block.

I would say da best block so far.

Luv psychology so much! hehe

There's so much thing i learn from diz block...

Bout people...

Why people do sumtings....
Learn how great a human can b, how weak a human can b...
Dat's Allah's creation..
^^

He knows everything....

Wahai pejuang...berlarilah!

Hav been bz wit college n playing, i really dun hav time to 'merepek' here... 

So, here is my spesel post for sumone dat i adore...

A FIGHTER DAT FIGHT TILL DA END...

Takziah to arwah MAS AFZAL....

Al- Fatihah....

Let's pray for him....

Who is he??

I know bout him from my fren's blog. I read his blog now n then if i had time.

He really is a fighter... He's a 26 years old just graduated doc. 

When his frenz were struggling wit their final year of medical school, he struggle with Hodgkin's Lymphoma n studies...

But Alhamdulillah, he managed to graduate! 

How hard is it for him at dat time... Sometimes when i think my situation is really hard, 

i remember how hard his life would be.

The most touching stories dat i read from his blog is when he got the diagnosis of his lymphoma during his final year, he cried so hard in a mosque holding the holy Quran on his chest.... 

All da effort he make to make it there, to be a medical student, his dream to be a doctor became all hazy at dat time...

If dat's happen to me, i wouldn't hav known if i would hav dat enormous strength...

Wat about my family? 

Wat about my dream...?

He reminds me how lucky I am.

He reminds me how weak a human r.

He makes me realize how strong a heart can be.

He reminds me.. how Allah is da Almighty....

Until da end of his life, he never fails to preach people about Islam, encourage people to stand on their feet.

Dat's da true fighter, a fighter dat fight till da end of their life

a fighter dat never giv up a single of time dat he left.

I may not know him personally, but he is my brother.

SAUDARA SEISLAM....

MASAFZAL.BLOGSPOT

A touching post from SAIFULISLAM

Berlarilah Mas, ke Temanmu yang Maha Tinggi!

Dear Dad.... So sorry....

You tucked me in, turned out the light

Kept me safe and sound at night

Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair

Had to drive me everywhere

You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone

Make a living, make a home

Must have been as hard as it could be

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away

Flap your wings now you can't stay

Take those dreams and make them all come true

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away

We've been waiting for this day

All along and knowing just what to do

Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly, butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away

Cr: Miley Cyrus

Forgive me if I possibly hurt your feelings today.
My immature self just said immature things.
If you possibly can't understand my feelings, it's fine.
No need for excuses, It's all my fault.

Even if you don't say everyone knows, both your eyes are immersed with tears.
Sorry, so sorry. This is my heart.
You know the day I've opened up my heart I'll do better.
Sorry. I'm sorry. I can't say anything other than this.

You can still hate me for your sorrowful feelings.
There's no need for any expressions. To me you'll be here forever.

Even if you don't say everyone knows, both your eyes are immersed with tears.
Sorry, so sorry. This is my heart.
You know the day I've opened up my heart I'll do better.
Sorry. I'm sorry. I can't say anything other than this.

I can't do anything other than this. I can't imagine a world without you.
Although I'm lacking and deficient, I love you.

Even if you don't say everyone knows, both your eyes are immersed with tears.
Sorry, so sorry. This is my heart.
You know the day I've opened up my heart I'll do better.
Sorry. I'm sorry. I can't say anything other than this...

Sorry, sorry. So hard to say I'm sorry.
Sorry, I'm sorry. I can't say anything other than this, yeah.

Cr : Luna & krystal (Fx)

p/s: As he raise me this much.... thnk you...
U raise me up to more than i can be.... 

Dear mom....

Dear Mom

for some reason i’m worn out and tired

remaining alone in my room, hugging a pillow

touching my phone, my heart is

for some reason lonely today

freightened by the sudden ringing of my phone

my mother’s worried call asking me if i’ve eatten

those normally annoying words are different today

those forgotten promises are being remembered.

I’ll become a person with a beautiful heart

become a person who is selfless

i’ll protect the expectations from mother’s love

i think of mother who used to share my dreams and brush my hair

though i’ve made hurtful, wrong choices you silently watched over me from behind

though a young and ‘innocent’/ not yet fully understanding child, i think i

understand now, the meaning behind mother’s silent prayers

what do I do, my yet small heart

will it do well without holding mothers hand

i fear/am weary because I still lack so much

i’ll become a wise mother’s daughter, give me the strength/confidence

i’ll become a praiseworthy daughter no matter where I go

I’ll become a heart that is warm as the unconditional love you’ve shown me

I was shy and couldnt often express,

that mother, i really love you.

Cr : Girls Generation

p/s: only da hearts knows.....

konvoi VIVA PALESTINA brjaya... alhamdulillah! :D

Dalam sbuk2 nk exam biochem yg gerun ni, jenguk FB jap. 

Nmpk brite gmbira dr Gaza.

Alhamdulillah, konvoi kemanusian Viva Palestina brjaya masuk tanah Gaza n diorg sume da smpai...

Wlaupun usaha yg lpas x brjaya, ALHAMDULILLAH yg ni berjaya. 

Ni baru skit kjayaan kta. Pasni lbeyh payah usaha mreka di sana. 

Mohon doa semua moga para sukarelawan n umat Islam semua dilindungi Allah SWT! 

Klu nk taw lbeyh leh la jenguk website AQSA SYARIF ni... 

:D

alahai... comelnye! hehe

Jmpe ni kt facebook ha! Trtarik lak nk bce... alahai comel la plak! hahaha :P

surat seorang lelaki kpd "future wife"

Kehadapan my future wife(s)

I menulis article ini bukan lah kerana di cabar oleh seorang member yang ingin melihat keromantikan I. Tapi.. err.. I ...menulis ini adalah kerana kehendak I. So, sila baca entri ni perlahan-lahan. Tak perlu laju-laju.

So, wahai my future wife(s)

I don't know who the hell are you and I have no idea where you are right now. But one day, bila kita dah berjumpa, I harap you mampu terima I seadanya seperti mana I akan terima you dan diri you sebenarnya. Lagi pun, I tahu yang you ni memang comel. Dan baik. Dan rajin. Dan alim. Dan cun.

I berharap bila I check facebook you nanti, you tidak letak banyak gambar you yang daring-daring kat facebook. Sebab, setahu I, kalau perempuan tu comel, mesti nak tunjukkan ke seluruh dunia. Macam lah dia sorang je yang comel. I comel tak ada pun letak gambar kat facebook tunjuk ke seluruh dunia. Boleh je hidup. Ehem.

Serta, gambar di facebook tu, jangan lah nak dedah sana dedah sini. Malu I. You pun tau kan, perempuan ni ibarat cokelat Ferrero Rocher. Bila berbalut dengan pembalut, even cokelat tu jatuh kelantai pun orang still nak. Tapi kalau dah tak berbalut, bila jatuh ke lantai, semua buat dono. Ada tu, kalau boleh, ada yang nak pijak lagi. You pun tak nak kena pijak kan?

Lagi pun, you tahu, tak ada lelaki di dunia ni yang nak kahwin dengan perempuan yang seksi meksi.

My future wife(s),

I tak tahu pasal masa depan I. I tak tahu berapa banyak duit yang I akan ada. So, dengan kata lain, I mungkin tak akan mampu kasi rumah 10 tingkat kat you. I juga mungkin tak mampu kasi you 10 emas intan berlian. Harap you tak kisah dengan diri I yang tak beharta ni. Tapi kalau setakat kasi you 20 hingga 30 anak tu, I okay je. Dalam tiga tahun, kita mungkin akan ada 2 anak. Tapi tu tak termasuk yang kembar tau.

Bila kita ada rumah nanti, I tak kisah kalau you nak bekerja. Tapi lagi bagus kalau you duduk je rumah jaga I. I bukan mintak di layan bagai raja. Tapi kalau I balik dari kerja tu, apa salahnya tanggalkan stokin I, urut bahu I, sediakan minum-minum I. Tapi kalau you tak nak buat, tak apa. I boleh tambah lagi 1 (cukup 2). Lagi pun, bila I tambah lagi 1, kurang la sikit beban you. See? I memang prihatin.

Hmm. You tau, I tak mengharapkan yang you adalah gadis lemah lembut dan ikut semua kata I. Kalau you boyish sikit pun apa salahnya. Aggressive itu menarik. Kalau boleh, lebihkan kat bahagian mengada-ngada dan keras kepala you tu. I suka. Senang la I nak ajak bergaduh kalau macam tu. Sebab kalau di ikutkan, I tak suka perempuan yang lemah lembut sangat. Nanti tak meriah rumah tangga. So kalau skali skala bergaduh, best juga kan? Lagi pun, kita gaduh siang-siang je, bila dah nampak katil di malam Jumaat, kita berbaik lah. Tambahan pula, bagi kita, setiap malam kan malam Jumaat.

My future wife (s),

You, I harap you reti memasak. You mesti reti memasak. Apa? Tak salah kalau perempuan tak reti masak? Ya. Memang tak salah. I tak kata pun salah. Tapi jangan salahkan I kalau I tambah lagi 1 isteri (cukup 3) sebab yang satu dan dua tak reti masak nak buat macam mana kan? Okay tak-tak. I tak nak bini 2,3,4. Banyak sangat. bukan tak mampu. Tapi... Ehem.

Actually, I bukan mintak you masak macam makan kat hotel. Asalkan you reti masak yang simple-simple sudah lah. You tau, air tangan masakan isteri lah yang buat si suami setia. Lagi pun, tak akan setiap hari kita nak makan kat restoran kan? Kalau setiap hari makan kat restoran, baik I kahwin je dengan mak cik tukang masak tu. Ye tak? You pun tak nak kan I tambah lagi satu (cukup 4) kan?

I harap you reti jaga diri sebelum jumpa I. Kalau boleh, jangan couple banyak-banyak. Tak pernah couple lagi bagus. Tapi kalau dah couple tu, jangan buat yang bukan-bukan dengan boyfriend you. Bila dating tu, jangan nak mengada-ngada keluar berdua. Boyfriend you tu bukan boleh percaya sangat. Kebanyakkanya adalah buaya. Sebab kalau dah lelaki, mesti bermulut manis. Boys, their mouth is bull****. So, don't trust them.

Akhir kata dari I, bila kita kahwin nanti, you masak, I makan. I imam, you makmum. I baca doa, you aminkan. You merajuk, I pujuk. Perfect, kan? So cepat lah cari I. I takut lah nak cari 'you'. Takut tersalah pilih perempuan lain. You pun mesti tak nak jadi isteri ke dua I kan.

p/s : 1st time ase nk tulih 'comel' kt blog! hahaha

tears... from da bottom of my heart...

Perempuan sinonim ngan air mata kn?? huhuhu 

Allah da ciptakn kami bgitu....

Tp air mata bkn tnda lemah, 

air mata tnda betapa kuatnye manusia hdapi kenyataan hdup....

:)

When things was so hard and lonely here, i was so grateful dat i still hav my frenz from faraway who hugs me n console me wit their words... My tears even flow heavily aftr read all those words... Thanks a lot frenz!!! 

I am really not alone rite?? I have Allah SWT who help me step one by one in diz tough journey

I hav my frenz who still remember dat i was exist in their world....

Dats da prove of my existence...

SNSD -Tears (English Translation)

The white starlight, the black darkness
is pushing me away from far
When i look at you with my smile
I always become farther apart

*When i call you, when i look for you
Come to me as the wind
Hug me in secret
So i can feel you
You are always next to me

The blue sky has dyed you.
Before you find out about my love
Don't feel bad for me, if you understand my tears
you will be able to laugh too

* When i call you, when i find you
Come to me as the wind
Hug me in secret
So i can feel you
You are always next to me

Love~ Like my song is my wind forever
Do you hear it too?
You leave so many memories
I only think about you

When i call you, when i find you
Come back to me as the rain
Whisper to me under the umbrella.
I loved you more
so i am hurting more

How can i convey it to you
My heart that really loved you
How is my love

over there, like that
That love I will now...I love you

To love sumeone is already a really hard thing 4 me

Then to lost da love is like slicing my own heart...

But now, i hav to learn to love people 2 be a great doctor

Sumtimes i'm thnking, wat da point i care 4 sumone but then they didn't care bout me at all

Now, I understand.... Allah beri jiwa n hati supaya manusia itu saling sayang menyayangi biar ap pown perbezaan kite....

p/s : To my M15.... Now we r going through da hardest thing. I really want to learn to love u all so dat we can be sisters dat can going through our medical study smoothly... But i really do not know how to do dat. I hope we can understand each other more coz I think I luv u all now... 

We r in da same boat.... we r da power of 9!

qilah.fadz.syieda.lydia.zara.aiman.ja.amal.fifi

To my K06 n MUFYans.... I trully luv u all...thnks 4 evrythng.... This song is specially 4 u all....

wan nadzifah!!! ni tuk ko! haha

Ad org tuh, nk sgt org ltak nme die lam blog....

So, ni lah hasilnye.... 

Haha akhirnye nme ko jd tjuk blog kn?? hehehe :P

Pah... rndu sgt taw!!! 

Ari tuh jmpe x smpt pluk habis agi taw!

X smpt nk bercriter manyak2.... 

Korg... Ak bhagia sgt jmpe korg!!! Tp kn besh klu jmpe Pu3 n Maziah skali... :(

Xpe la, alhamdulillah... Allah bg jdoh kte jmpe ag kn?? huhuhu 

Pah, jge Wani tuh. Pape kang report kt ak yek! haha 

X sbr nk dgr brite gumbira... Huhuhu 

Korg, jge dri yek! Doakn ak kt sni sorg2 nih! hehe

insyaAllah, ak doakan korg... Igt korg slalu lam doa ak, insyaAllah....

Alhamdulillah....:D

“Muslim pling kuat ialah muslim yg berkata dgn hati n jiwanya, ALHAMDULILLAH wlaupun die hilang bnda pling brharga dlm hdupnye…”

Kta2 ni buat ak kuat skrg ni….

ALHAMDULILLAH…

ALHAMDULILLAH…

ALHAMDULILLAH…

Syukur sgt pd Allah SWT ak msih mmpu hdup ats muka bumi wlaupun ak rse ak kurang byk sgt bnda…

ALHAMDULILLAH…

Sjak duk tmpt bru, mse awl2 dlu rse mcm, “Ya Allah, mnyesalnye buat plihan ni…”

Tp tersedar sndri… “Afifah, Allah da tnjukkn jln ni pd kau, ap lg yg kau nk?? Die Maha Mengetahui dunia n akhirat. Engkau hamba die, ap kuasa kau nk tolak sume bnda ni?”

Astaghfirullah…

Afifah yg skrang blajar tuk pndg dunia lbih positif…

Sekarang, ak bleh kte hdup xdek baek sgt.

Mcm2 bnda kna pkir lam kpala otak… Blajar, family, kwn, duit….

Kdg2 rse sunyi kt sni. Hdup nk mkn mnum pown ssah. Blajar plak, rezut ak x shebat org len pown. Kdang2 brgelut ngan mslh duet plak… huhuhu

Tp bler tgk blik, ALHAMDULILLAH…

Byk da bnda Allah da bg ak.

ALLAH bg ak hdup yg pling baek ntuk ak. Allah sdiakn sgala yg ak prlukn…

Keluarga yg pling baek ntuk ak.

Kawan2 yg pling ak prlukan….

Mnggu lpas, jmpe kwn2 Monash blik. Syukur sgt dlm hati, bile pndang kwn2 lme, trima kasih Allah, kau sdiakn mereka2 ni tuk ajr ak tntg dunia Engkau, tntg hidup yg Engkau sdiakn ntuk ak…

Byk sgt diorg ajr ak tntg hdup….

Klu Allah x tntukn ak blajar kt MRSM, kna K06, x mngkin ak sekuat ni.

Klu Allah x tntukn ak blajar kt Monash, ak x mungkin blajar mcm mane nk hdup ats kaki sndri…

Trima kasih sgt sume2 sahabat2 ak… X tahu mcm mne nk bls jasa baek korg kn?? Allah je mmpu bls sume ni…. 

TERIMA KASIH SGT!!! SYUNK KORG SGT!!!

Mntak maap sgt slama kte bersahabat ni, ak x bg korg pape yer… maap….

ALHAMDULILLAH….

sunyi...

Da lme x update blog. 

Bkn x nk, tp ssah nk cri mse.

Byk bnda ni cite

Tp bnyak sgt smpai x taw nk citer yg mne. 

N mostly bnda2 yg x besh tuk crite...

Kpala otak 24/7 pkir bnda ni n itu... Penat sgt...

Ya Allah, penat sgt duk tmpt bru ni...

Mcm2 bnda nk kna pkir. 

Kna pkir study, kna pkir dri, pkir kwan, pkir perasaan org...

Smpaikn nk mkn pown kna pkir 10 ari! *Ayat Dr. Hamdan* hehe :P

Mnggu ni, sgt truk! 

X taw ap yg truk tp otak penat sgt. 

Jiwa penat sgt!

Smpaikn hari khamis tuh, ak tdo sehari! X bce bku + x stadi pape. 

Alamatnye, mlm jumaat tuh, ak x tdo. Da la ad test pg tuh...

Pejam mata tp kpala x berenti pkir mcm2. 

Menangis sorg2 tgh mlm....Mrh kt dri sndri sbb x mmpu tdo...

Rse sunyi sgt, teringin nk rse pelukan sorg kwn...

Alhamdulillah, dlm kepenatan tuh, ak mmpu bgn sujud...

Kwan2 slalu ckp....

"Jgn rse sunyi, Allah slalu ada n teman d ssi..."

Ak igt itu slalu... n ak cbe igt tuh dlm hati slalu...

Tp kdg2 rse nk rebah gak ngan sume bnda....

InsyaAllah sume akn ok...

Kdang2 klu rse x mmpu ngan keadaan, ak slalu tgk blik dri sndri..

Pkir...

Afifah, knape manja mcm ni. Orang len ad sengsara lagi truk dri kau.

Mcm ni skit pown nk nanges?!

Slh sorg kwn da kehilangan abg tersyg die...

Takziah Iezy...

Sabar yek... Allah sygkn Iezy n family...

Sdeyh tuk die... 

Da la duk jawh kt Mesir time tuh.

Msti die lagi sunyi kt sne.

Ya Allah, dlm hati... 'Alhamdulillah ak msih kt sni. Klu jd pape kt family, ak smpt lari blik. Alhamdulillah...'

Sori kwn2, post cam gloomy skit yek! Huhuhu

Tc sume.... 

Jge dri yek...

Salam...

:D