Life goes On??

It has been a month n everythng is still da same n nothing is going rite...

Now??

I dun know if can say dat my life is alrite

Looking back, i juz wanna laugh out loud about everythng n wake up from this dream

I wish it is a dream...

I wish i can turn everythng from da start..

But, everythng happen in front of my eyes

I never knew it would happen to me

I never imagine it WOULD HAPPEN to me....

It is funny rite??  

I guess diz happen at da rite time myb??

A big bell juz happen to ring in my life i guess

Time to refresh everythng..

Part of me juz want to shout n being mad to myself...

Part of me juz want to cry all night dat it would b enough for my whole life...

People might see i laugh n smile

But they never knew wat's in my heart

They would never knew...

I'm afraid

Everyday i wake up with thoughts

" Will everythng would b fine today?"

"Will i b fine today?"

"Will my fren b fine?"

"Will i hav to hear another bad news?"

A pathetic way to live rite??

People never imagine how dat matter affect our life

They think we r fine juz by looking on our smile

But they never imagine our heart crying inside...

I wish i can do sumthing... but i can't

Ya Allah, Ya Rabb

I juz want you to give us strength to go through everythng 

U r da mighty dat knows everthing dat we don't....

brOkeN...

When 2 my fav singer + fav song meet...

AWESOMENESS!

Juz a lame entry here... Hehehe... 

Sori! 

:D

To me, its worth to take a look 4 a sec!

Bleh meleleh air mata dgr nih! 

Da lagu lak kna betol ngan ak!

Right on my face!

I luv their voices so much! 

update... update... :P

Da lme x bukak blog, tgk2 ad msg lak. 

Hehehe Aah,... ngah update la ni Ajie!!!! :P Hehehe

Weyh... Rndu korg!!! Rndu Atie n Ajie...

Cmne life korg ek?? Arap sume ok k!

Seminggu blik sni dri Klate da ase cam duk kt neraka...

Atoi...

Bru seminggu! Cmne ak nk than duk sni 4 mnggu lg???

Maaaaaaaaakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!

Homesick da! X mmpu nk menghadap org2 kt sni da... :(

HAish! Klu bkn sbb pkir mak ayah ni, da lme ak lari taw! 

Haish... SAbor je lah. 

Susah kn bile org x percaya ap yg kita buat n buat diorg pnye conclusion sndri.

Pahit sgt perasaan tuh. 

Nk slahkn org tuh or nk slahkn dri sndri sbb x bg explanation??

Susahnye nk suh org paham kita!!

Susahnye bila mulut ni terkunci jek!!!! 

Da rse penat nk bg explanation smpaikn rse nk bg biar la ap org nk pkir...

Ak demam smpai ase nk mati die leh ckp ak wat2 demam sbb x nk g kem.

Aish, panas jek....

Klu ko kenal diri ni, ko akn tahu ak x wat bnda2 camtuh.

Ko x taw betapa ank dara ni suka hutan sesangt!

:((

Klu demam tuh sikit jek, ak x kesah nk menapak kt hutan tuh! 

Afifah slama ni demam x penah pegi hospital apatah lagi klinik. 

Pandai2 jek tahan smpai sembuh sndri taw! 

Dah klu smpai p emergency hospital tengah2 malam tuh maksudnya...

Hati ni je la paham... :((

MAKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Homesick sgt.... :(

Mak.....

Skang musim Mother's Day kn??

MAK!

HAPPY MOTHER's Day!!!!

Sayang mak dunia akhirat!

Kak Ipah da wat manyak silap kn kt mak??

Slalu wat mak risau...

Time kecik2, ank pompuan mak ni la pling degil kn??

Tp smpai Kak Ipah besar pown mak slalu ad kt situ.

Kadang2 mak hntar Kak Ipah jawh2, tp mak slalu tgk dr jawh kn??

Walaupun mak x ckp, oghe tahu mak nk oghe jd manusia yg baek.

Harap mak tahu, impian yg oghe kejar sekarang, stiap bnda yg oghe wat skang tuk mak, sebab mak...

N saat hati ni berat dgn mcm2 bnda, muka mak yg sejukkn nya....

Dgr suara mak, air mata ni mengalir....

Mekasih mak...

Mekasih mak...

Mekasih mak....

Kesian mak besarkn ank rmai2 ni kn?? Huhuhu

InsyaAllah, ada rexki Allah bg, kitaorg jge mak n ayah smpai ujung usia kitaorg! 

Mak, Ayah, hdup lme2 k!

Jgn tnggal kami....

Ya Allah..... Pnjgkn usia ibubapa ku n jaga lah mereka.....

Bahagiakn kami....

Biarlah Kak Ipah hilang dunia, Kak Ipah x nk hilang Mak ngan Ayah...

Sayang mak n ayah...

Mungkin sekarang ak hilang banyak bnda... satu2 bnda terlepas dr tgn tp Allah bagi anugerah pling besar dlm hidup...

FAMILY....

Alhamdulillah.....

When diz hard heart can't b open to others, 

once I hear ur name, my heart soothen.

As these eyes not even cry when she hurt, 

once I hear ur voice, 

the tears flows like it won't stop

I live for your dreams and your silent prayers...

I remember da night i call u with tears

Crying my heart out to you...

Hearing ur worried voice and ask me to stop crying...

I'm sorry...

Sorry for all my wrongdoings and stupid decisions

Sorry for being a clumsy and immature daughter...

Thank you for raising me

I know that I can't love you how much you love me

I will become a proud daughter...

A daughter dat u can lean on and give u comfort.

I will b ur bestfriend for all my life....

From ur shy and timid daughter dat can't express herself...

Mak... I Love u.....

Kiss and hug from me....

p/s : Asyik teringt muke mak yg majuk sbb ak x nk pkai bju die beli ahad lepas.... hehehe :P

Cute sgt! Sori mak... :P

Hadiah hari ibu??

Wafer coklat, peluk n cium sebelum naek bas... :D

wat's hurt the most...

Wah.... da lme tnggal blog, rndu plak! Huhuhhuhuh 

bersepah n berhabuk dah blog ni pown... huhu

Erm... nk cite psl ap yek??

Erm... K lah.

Citer psal drama ak ngah lyn skang la.

Tjuk die THORN BIRDS...

Tahu x Thorn Birds tu ap?? Huhuuhuuhu

Yg ak tahu skit2, thorn birds ni burung yg mmpu hidup wlaupun tmpt tuh byk duri...

Lbih krang mcm, wlaupown susah mcm mne pown keadaan, die mmpu hdup...

Citer ni sdeyh... 

Buat kte fikir blik... 

Kadang2 kte buat kesalahan besar sgt. 

Masa pown x mmpu nk baiki kesalahan tu.

Walaupown kite bayar ngan hidup kite, 

bnda tuh xleh pusing blik...

Dlm citer ni, an unwed mother left her daughter to her friend,

but then the kind friend kept trying to make her accept her daughter, raise her since she capable to do so...

Tapi, klau mata manusia ni lbih pntingkn dunia, anak sndri pown die boleh buang ke tepi...

Bukannye die x mmpu, tp sbb malu, sbb hidup sndri, snggup susahkn kawan sndri..

Tp bile da brjaya, ank tuh da bsar, susah2 kwn die jge, die nk blik plak ank tuh...

X taw nk cakp bnda tuh patut ke x patut.

Patut ke nk bg ank tu blik kt mak die???

patut ke biarkan aje ank tuh hdup bahgie ngan mak yg bsarkn die???

Korang mcm mne???

Huhuhuu pkir2 kn lah.

Ngan keadaan skang ni, baby org buang merata jek.

Mcm ank tuh xdek harga.

Mcm snang je nk ngandungkn ank tuh smpai 9 blan.

Aish....

Kite pkir, dlm dunia ni, org wat bnda msti ada sbb.

Tp biler pkirkn blik, kdg2 sbb utk diorg wat bnda2 cmtuh x patot langsung!

Pkirla dlu seblum nk wat ap2...

Sahabat! 

Ad sebab knapa Allah x suh dekat pown ngan ZINA

' When u fell sad, lonely or wronged, when u dwell with those feelings, bad seeds will start grow inside u and become thorns.'

 Ni lah kata2 dlm citer ni yg ak igt sgt2!

Bgus kan??

Mksud die, kite jgn simpan perasaan yg x baek dalam hati.

Kalau x lme2 hati kter yg carik2 kena duri!

Huhuhuhu

And bnda ni yg ak ngah ajr diri skang.

Jgn smpan dlm hati!

Bnci mcm mane pown kita kt org, skit hati mcm mana pown kita, blajar utk lpaskn..

Sikit2...

Belajar fifah blajar, ajar hati tuh jgn jd batu!

:)

Ya Allah... rndu mereka...

Ya Allah... 

Ak rndu sgt diorg. 

Sgt...

Ak x penah taw ak bleh nangis sbb rndu diorg...

Ya Allah, tabahkn hati ni...

Ase nk gelak plak...

X taw ak slama sgt kras ati.

Camni rsenye rndu org ye?

Ya Allah,

Mohon kau jagailah diorg

Setiap langkah kami...

Jagailah...

Alhamdulillah...

Even dgn keadaan skang, 

ade bnda yg patot ak syukuri

ade bnda berharga yg Allah da bagi

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah...

Even bru 2 ari kt Cyber, da rndu sgt ngan mak

Betul kata Syaza

Mse ni la nk btulkn keadaan

Mse ni la ad pluang nk ubah sesuatu..

Rndu sgt ngan mak n ayah

skang ak da jd anak manja mak n ayah! 

hehehhee

:P

xtaw npe n bile

ak rse ak rpat sgt ngan mak

ase nk nanes bile mak tnye nape x call bile da smpai cyber

ase nk nanes bile ayah ckp jgn riso psl sume tuh, blaja je

Alhamdulillah...

Ak dpt nikmat ni seblum ak mati...

Alhamdulillah...

Pastu, hahaa akhirnye taw gak, time ak kecik2 tersgt nakal smpai mak bwk p jmpe bomoh! :P

dat's explain how am i now rite?? :P

Am I da wrong one??

I'm really am sorry to all my friend dat I left them without words...

I'm sorry for not answering your questions.

I'ts just dat it was so hard to tell u...

My college akn kluarkn 86 student out of 236 becoz MMC ( Malaysia Medical Council ) will not recognize da college if we do not do dat. 

Dan diorg bg plihan kt kitaorg, 

Tukar course kpd farmasi kt CUCMS

Tukar sem 1 blik for august 2011 intake

Tukar uni ( Taylors, MSU, UniKL, ACMS )

>> p/s : Bdak tajaan nmpknye lgi berisiko sbb JPA n MARA sdia pndhkn student....

After meeting wit parents yesterday, we made decision to stay put.

However, apparently dat's all false hope. 

Korg, ak bkn xnk ckp ngan korg, bkn xnk crite tp ak tkut sgt... Sgt tkut. 

Xtahu nk wat ap...

Klu diorg ikut academic performance, mmg ak rse ak kna sbb rezut ak truk...

AK SGT TAKUT.

Spnjg ak hidup, ni la brita plg gerun penah ak dgr.

Mcm dgr ko kna pecat kerja.

Mcm dgr husband ckp nk cerai.

Lbey krang la... huhuhu

Ak bkn x nk crite kt korg tp ak tkut ak mnangis bile crita kt korg.

Ak tkut air mata mengalir lg....

Ak juz nk korg ade kt sni, pluk ak. Ak x nk ckp pape... 

Bg ak kekuatan... 

Ak bce kta2 korg kt fb pown ak da ngalir air mata.

Inikn plak ko nk suh ak crita bnda ni dr A smpai Z...

X smpt smpai B kot nati...

Ak x kuat...

Ak xtaw nk wat ap skang, xtaw nk pkir ap dah...

Da mcm mayat idup pown ad. 

Da 3 ari demam n x sembuh2 agi.... T_T

X penah lg demam truk cmni.....

Korg, tlonglah, doakn ak... Doakn kwn kau ni. Scebis doa mohon yg terbaek buat ak dan kwn2 kt sni...

Sungguh kami x kuat dah...

Dan Allah je mmpu blas jasa doa2 korg....

InsyaAllah...

If u ask wat i fell rite now...

I'm angry

Frustrated

Helpless

Lonely

Rse geram sgt bile org ckp, berkorbanla, demi org len...

Geram sgt ble org ckp, ko kuar la, ko sng skit...

Geram sgt bile org ckp, tmpt len lg besh, pegi la...

Adeyh, sngnye manusia brckp...

Cube pkir klau korg berada kt tpmt ak.

Cube pkir klu ank korg dperlakukn mcm ni.

Disepak2 suka hati jek....

Tp... Mcm ni la, ak tenangkn hati ngn ckp, Allah jdkn sgalanye ad sebab, ade kebaikannye...

Ya Allah, andai Kau tntukn sesuatu pdku, Ak mohon itu yg trbaek, dunia n akhirat.

Mohon kau kuatkn hatiku ats segalanya....

Kaulah Maha Besar, Maha mengetahui segalanya....

Wat my parents say??

They told me not to worry too much n juz accept wat would happen aftr diz.

They will accept wateva da decision...

To my beloved frens... 

Pah + Nemo + Mice + Wani + Timah + Syaza ....

Thanks a lot for worrying bout me, ask me bout wat happen... It's not dat i dun want to tell u but, u know me rite?? huhuhu.... I luv u all.... All ur words, letters give me strength to go on n cry too! :P ... Thnks a lot.... Wish u were here....

Everyone dat asking me to calm down n b strong, thnks.... 

Tuhan je blas jasa baek korg....

P/s : Klau... ade pndgn yg bernas ap yg patot ak buat, blehla gtaw! huhuhuhu 

x sanggup da nk kna sepak2 suke ati ni...

how's life??

Afifah, how's life?

Haha.... tnye dri sndri plak... :P 

Everything is okay although i stumble here n there, anyhow, everything is ok..

Dat's life is it? we stumble sumtimes...

:)

Last week, spend some precious time wit my family.

Kuar shopping, jln2, mkn2.. :D

Nowadays, ayah n mak bz kalah menteri! hehehe

Slalu outstation jek. So, last week ayah ad mesyuarat kt KL, 

so, parent bwk adek2 ribena tuh jln2.... JELES EDEN!!!!

Tp xpela, smpat abihkn msa shari yg ad ngan diorg. 

Da la ak homesick!!! Ilang rndu skit....

Alhamdulillah...

I really am thankful now...

Allah knows da best rite???

He arrange everything beautifully...

^^

Study??

My biochem paper, i failed it ngan bangganya! Hahaha

Mmg xdek jodoh ngan Chemi....

Starting 2 giv up, but then, seeing my parent face last weekend, make me think...

'this really not da end yet, u cant giv up!'

To Atie... we walk on da same path, there's no different...

U hav 2 be strong n i really know how u feel

I'm sorry that i can't b at ur side n hug u tightly...

but please b fine...

remember, i always hugs u silently at da back, giving u small strength....

Luv u n missing u like crazy....

Now, I'm in da behavior science block.

I would say da best block so far.

Luv psychology so much! hehe

There's so much thing i learn from diz block...

Bout people...

Why people do sumtings....
Learn how great a human can b, how weak a human can b...
Dat's Allah's creation..
^^

He knows everything....

Wahai pejuang...berlarilah!

Hav been bz wit college n playing, i really dun hav time to 'merepek' here... 

So, here is my spesel post for sumone dat i adore...

A FIGHTER DAT FIGHT TILL DA END...

Takziah to arwah MAS AFZAL....

Al- Fatihah....

Let's pray for him....

Who is he??

I know bout him from my fren's blog. I read his blog now n then if i had time.

He really is a fighter... He's a 26 years old just graduated doc. 

When his frenz were struggling wit their final year of medical school, he struggle with Hodgkin's Lymphoma n studies...

But Alhamdulillah, he managed to graduate! 

How hard is it for him at dat time... Sometimes when i think my situation is really hard, 

i remember how hard his life would be.

The most touching stories dat i read from his blog is when he got the diagnosis of his lymphoma during his final year, he cried so hard in a mosque holding the holy Quran on his chest.... 

All da effort he make to make it there, to be a medical student, his dream to be a doctor became all hazy at dat time...

If dat's happen to me, i wouldn't hav known if i would hav dat enormous strength...

Wat about my family? 

Wat about my dream...?

He reminds me how lucky I am.

He reminds me how weak a human r.

He makes me realize how strong a heart can be.

He reminds me.. how Allah is da Almighty....

Until da end of his life, he never fails to preach people about Islam, encourage people to stand on their feet.

Dat's da true fighter, a fighter dat fight till da end of their life

a fighter dat never giv up a single of time dat he left.

I may not know him personally, but he is my brother.

SAUDARA SEISLAM....

MASAFZAL.BLOGSPOT

A touching post from SAIFULISLAM

Berlarilah Mas, ke Temanmu yang Maha Tinggi!

Dear Dad.... So sorry....

You tucked me in, turned out the light

Kept me safe and sound at night

Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair

Had to drive me everywhere

You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone

Make a living, make a home

Must have been as hard as it could be

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away

Flap your wings now you can't stay

Take those dreams and make them all come true

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away

We've been waiting for this day

All along and knowing just what to do

Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly, butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away

Cr: Miley Cyrus

Forgive me if I possibly hurt your feelings today.
My immature self just said immature things.
If you possibly can't understand my feelings, it's fine.
No need for excuses, It's all my fault.

Even if you don't say everyone knows, both your eyes are immersed with tears.
Sorry, so sorry. This is my heart.
You know the day I've opened up my heart I'll do better.
Sorry. I'm sorry. I can't say anything other than this.

You can still hate me for your sorrowful feelings.
There's no need for any expressions. To me you'll be here forever.

Even if you don't say everyone knows, both your eyes are immersed with tears.
Sorry, so sorry. This is my heart.
You know the day I've opened up my heart I'll do better.
Sorry. I'm sorry. I can't say anything other than this.

I can't do anything other than this. I can't imagine a world without you.
Although I'm lacking and deficient, I love you.

Even if you don't say everyone knows, both your eyes are immersed with tears.
Sorry, so sorry. This is my heart.
You know the day I've opened up my heart I'll do better.
Sorry. I'm sorry. I can't say anything other than this...

Sorry, sorry. So hard to say I'm sorry.
Sorry, I'm sorry. I can't say anything other than this, yeah.

Cr : Luna & krystal (Fx)

p/s: As he raise me this much.... thnk you...
U raise me up to more than i can be....