CinTa ItU :)

I really want to share this here... :D

During Ramadan, I spent most of days at my grandma's house dat i lovingly called 'MA'

I would say dat those days r days i miss da most

I found peace juz by looking at her face

n hearing her voice

Dat face dat i would dare to say such a beautiful face

I think I can feel something 

whenever i look into her eyes

She's missing someone

Every nite, she would sleep only juz a few hours 

Woke up early and prepared us sahur

Then you would hear her voice reciting the Quran echoed in the house

I love dat moment so much...

2.00 a.m 

30 august

Dawn of Eid for 2011

She woke up early again

I asked her why

She said she couldn't sleep

End up prepared nasi dagang for the Eid next morning

I felt a lump of emotion in my throat at dat time

Suddenly i felt sad

'She's missing ABAH'

Dat's wat i'm thinking 

I end up sit beside her and watching her 

She's preparing nasi dagang for us

A tradition for her n us

A 'religion' to her since she married my late Abah ( My late grandpa )

There's silence between us

Without words i just sit there n helping her whatever that i can

But I end up went back to sleep

While she's cooking till morning with my mother later

If Abah is there

She would not be alone doing all that

She would have someone to nag her

To help her

*my late grandpa was a great cook!! :D*

She would sleep tightly in his arm at night before Eid

She would not get up dat early

Someone would make her smile on Eid day

I miss that....

Looking back

I never heard his name out of Ma's mouth after he's gone

I never saw her tears

But she's become someone dat love to kept old things even they're broken

Old cupboard dat Abah build for her is still there

His kain pelekat n kopiah is still there 

Even I think, his smell is still in their room

I want to have dat kind of love

Pure love between Abah n Ma

They are like match make in heaven

Ma was 16 when they married 

She was a petite chinese malay girl and Abah was a police officer

Abah is a strict n loud person

Ma is such a sweet n softspoken person

She would prepare anything that he like

He would help her in kitchen

He would prepare anything that she need in the house

A cupboard, chair, a room, a store hut

Everything is for her comfort

Truthfully

I miss him too

When he died

I'm not there

I cried so much when my mom told me through the phone

Two death in one day

My Abah n my Ayah Su

As my family flew back to Kelantan

I'm in Kuching.

Left with my brother across the sea

I don't even know where's their graves at that time

I cried so much that i can't even talk to anybody

Then the next day

My tears stopped

N I never cried about him again

But seeing Ma's face

Make all memories with him come back

His teases to me

His yell n nags to me

His face when he cooking n gardening

I miss that

I'm regret to not have chance to see his face n kiss his forehead

chance to apologize to him

T_T

Ya Allah, tempatkanlah dia di tempat orang2 yg beriman dan tmpt org2 yg Kau kasihi... 

I want to grow old with someone

Not two or three

Just one man dat willing to grow old with me

Is it so hard to have dat??

To loyal to a person throughout your life?

Seeing them, I get that

Marriage is not about you marrying a person for your own good

It's about marrying a person's life for you n her/him

Everything is Allah's fate

He prepared everything beautifully for us

I hope I would get the best that He prepared for me...

Amin... :)